Thursday, September 16, 2010

Is Eternity Physically Closer Than We Think?

Sometimes I wonder what clues God gives us about purpose and life in eternity and oneness with Him through His creation around us.
I know He has given us a few examples of this in the bible.
Matthew 6:28
"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin."
Matthew 6:25
"Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life?
Matthew 13:31
"The kingdom of heaven is like a mustard seed, which a man took and planted in his field. Though it is the smallest of all your seeds, yet when it grows, it is the largest of garden plants and becomes a tree, so that the birds of the air come and perch in it's branches."
Proverbs 6:6-8
Go to the ant, O sluggard; consider her ways, and be wise. Without having any chief, officer, or ruler, she prepares her bread in summer and gathers her food in harvest.

What clues and surprises are all around me pointing to God's love for us?
Last night Dave and I were enjoying the life growing inside of me. Wells was dancing with every limb. Dave had his hands on my belly trying to soak in every bump and poke Wells was making when he looked at me and said, "what if Heaven is closer than we think? He began to explain a beautiful parallel between Heaven and the womb. I believe God gave Dave a hint of truth last night. I'll try to explain.
 Over the past 7 months we've rejoiced with Wells' every development, feeling him getting stronger and seeing my belly swell bigger and bigger each week we know he will be ready soon to join us in the world. We have so much love for Wells and yet he doesn't even know our love yet. He doesn't know every night Dave and I rub my belly hoping to touch him through the thin wall that separates us. Dave puts his mouth really close to my belly and he speaks beautiful words of love to Wells everyday yet Wells still cannot fathom the love we have for him. He would not be able to understand anything we are so excited to share with him when he is born. All he knows right now is the comfort of the womb. 
Wells does not know that we talk about him everyday and that we are preparing a place for him in our home.  We already love this child more than life. 
What if (as I've mentioned before in this blog) life on earth being our womb before eternity (preparing us for a life of eternity) is just as close to God and Heaven and our loved ones in Heaven as Wells is to Dave and I. Wells is comfortable in his womb being prepared and developed for a life on earth and we are enjoying him, longing for his birth. Drinking in his every movement. His grandparents and aunts and uncles are loving him and anticipating his arrival. He is with us and growing before our eyes yet he does not know of us. He can hear us and is wrapped in the warmth of our love but does not know of life on earth yet. 
He is only separated from us by a thin layer inside my body.
Are we being in the womb called life on earth only separated by a thin layer from those in Heaven? ARe they around us? Are we growing in character and developing spiritually inside of Christ while in this womb called earth until we are to be born into eternity with our Heavenly Father? Are our loved ones in Heaven rejoicing our growth and development in learning or God's glory and are they anticipating our arrival into LIFE. 
Life being eternity with God.
Are we all in the same room only separated by the thin layer? Does God and our loved ones hold us and talk to us and prepare for our arrival and rejoice with our every bump and poke as we mature excited for our birth.
I'm still praying for this to unfold inside my heart. I'm seeking God's understanding. I love this parallel and I praise God for glimpses of the life He prepares for us through His creation around us.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

"When the Road is Winding Way to Long"

Psalm 42:7-8
"Deep calleth unto deep at the noise of thy waterspouts: all thy waves and thy billows are gone over me. Yet the Lord will command his loveingkindess in the daytime, and in the night his song shall be with me, and my prayer unto the God of my life."

It's been a hectic and disappointing morning.
I'll spare you the details this time because I want to focus on what the Holy Spirit shared with me a few minutes ago. God so intimately and relevantly speaks into our hearts doesn't He?
As I was elbow deep in the muck of cleaning up after a busy beginning of the day and with a heart that was heavy for missing Jakey a song came on, You Deliver Me by Selah.
Its a beautiful song but as the artists sang out heartfelt words I thought, the Lord has delivered me from my own mistakes and sin and He has forgiven me and given me a crown, I'm thankful Lord, yet I want to know how you are delivering my family from this crushing heartbreak that we can hardly endure day after day.
I heard the spirit stir an emotional response of it's very own grief inside me, (grief for our pain). (Jesus wept when he beheld the sorrow of Mary from losing her brother. He was moved deeply. -John 11:33-38 ) 
.."My deliverance to you is moment by moment" I heard the spirit whisper in a way that told me the spirit inside me as well as the Father and Son are grieving with me, with us, with my family. He isn't far removed from the "sad story" of a 17 year old being shot and killed too early in his full beautiful life. The trinity is surrounding each of us in our tears in our sorrow in our dreams in our every moment delivering us so that we can take another breath so that we can love the ones around us and so that we can be apart of the "great dance"of life, the beautiful relationship between Father Son and Holy Spirit. 

The "great dance" of life isn't just a mere earth bound moment. It is the intimate relationship of Father Son and Holy Spirit and they together have a embraced God's children into the dance of life and love and harmony between them. Holiness is the very essence of the result of their love for each other and I have been invited into their oneness and holiness, into their experience of life. I've been reading a book called The Great Dance by C. Baxter Kruger. It has been eye opening and life changing.  I will refer to it a lot more in my future posts.
ANYWAY, back to what God was saying about His deliverance moment by moment...
The Lord was sharing with me that He is in it. He is in every moment with me. No moment is wasted. And He knowing my heart delivers me even when I don't realize it. He is carrying us through this. And in the process our relationship is deepened...moment by moment, day by day. God in the heartbreak is intimately and completely strengthening the bond between us. He is wrapping around me, with His strength string by string. I am the weak link and He in these moments in these deliverances in these beautiful weaknesses of mine is making us one unbreakable cord as a unity of oneness in our relationship. And if one can overpower him who is alone, two can resist him.  A cord of three strands is not quickly torn apart.  Ecclesiastes 4:12 (NIV)
I like this verse but I also see the cord as a relational cord that I trust Jesus with this heartbreaking time in our life, and in the seen and unseen mercies I trust Him and in the process of the grief and in the process of Him wrapping around me we are bonded and united and we have a history of deepened relationship that in Heaven will be all the stronger. In Heaven the Lord and I will have a beautiful oneness that can not be broken. A oneness that was given through heartbreaking times on earth.
Our eternal relationship will grow from a deep intimate foundation from our memories and tears on earth.
God has opened up my heart to a new understanding of memories in Heaven but that is for another post. I rest in you Lord, "when the road is winding way to long, You deliver me.