Wednesday, February 24, 2010

A Touch and Go Follower

I watched a movie about Jesus life. In it there was a scene where a crowd of people would follow Jesus and get a glimpse of him or a smile or a touch on the shoulder and they would be content and move on with their lives.
I was annoyed by this and I said 'Lord, I do not want to be a follower that touches and goes. I do not want to be content with touching you and then living my life. I want more of you. I want to be as one and as united as a human can be with you. I want a oneness more than anything, a true oneness - and the Lord said to me - "You are my bride."
And it struck me, or should I say the Holy Spirit revealed what God said, something I have never thought of before.
The Lord is my Father and Jesus is my groom.
The Lord loves me and wants me for his son - the Lord allowed his son to die for me - His bride.
Do you get this with me?!
first of all I can't be any closer with Jesus He dwells in me and we are one, you can't get any closer in a relationship than a bride and groom.

I look at that picture of Dave holding our only son Oscar.
I cannot imagine Dave handing Oscar over to someone to be sacrificed for a future bride of his that is grossly sinful.
I would say, 'no way, she does not deserve him, she's not good enough for him.
Yet God saw me in my most wretched sin and said I love her, she is my son's bride, and He and Jesus paid the ultimate sacrifice for me. First of all, how deeply in love is our groom with us, and second how deeply in love is our father with us?!

We are the bride of Christ! All of us that surrendered our hearts to Jesus, that surrendered our lives for His life, we are his body, we are one with Him we are his bride.
I am Christ's bride and He dwells in me. I can't be any closer to Christ. We are already one.
A bride waits for her groom she keeps her lamp oil full for when he comes for her.
Revelation 19:7
Let us rejoice and be glad and give him glory! For the wedding of the Lamb has come, and his bride has made herself ready.
I'm ready Lord, let's go home!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

My Prayer This Morning

my father, my King, my Savior, my first love, my heart, my soul I love you.
I need you.
You are a mystery within me.
You are my hero and my knight.
My king and the prince of my dreams.
As I pray I imagine an intricate and beautiful box is being cracked open for me to slip my hand in and claim unsearchable treasures.
Inside of me are all of your blessings, your attributes, your "unsearchable riches".
All of Heaven and earth and the universe and holiness are hidden in me. All of this is in Jesus and Jesus is in me.
Thank you that you fill me with the fullness of You. The fullness of almighty God.
I cherish your word to us who believe:
Ephesians 3:19
Ephesians 3:6-12

Monday, February 22, 2010

It's hard to put into words all that the phrase Home At Last means to me right now. I've dropped my suitcase in the foyer, I've shed the Florida flip flops for more practical wool socks. I've even slipped into my favorite valour pants and snuggly sweater, yet with the heavy thump of an overstuffed diaper bag, I cannot help but release a heavy sigh of overstuffed sorrow grief and agony.
After 7 weeks of facing the finality of my beloved baby brother Jake Couture's murder in FL. I'm home at last. . 'But is this home?' I ask myself. Am I home 2,019 miles away from Jake's things and my parents and all the family that I love? Or am I still awaiting the day I can unload the painful and oppressive baggage of this world in the foyer of eternity.
Come quickly Lord Jesus.
Isaiah 41:10 says "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."

I know that Jake is standing before the almighty God of infinity, God of all, the great I Am.
I know that as I praise God in worship, Jake is worshiping Jesus too. He is standing before God Himself and he and I worship the same creator at the same moment in time. I feel connected to Jake that way. We are one in Christ Jesus. Jake truly is home at last. The pain of loosing my irreplaceable Jakey is immense, but I trust you Lord Jesus.
"you give and take away, my heart will choose to say Lord blessed be your name" -(great song: blessed be your name tree63)
"And those who know your name put their trust in you, for you, O Lord, have not forsaken those who seek you. Psalm 9:10